I have just spent the past week being a “real” person, a “real”person in the good-for-nothing 21
st century sense. This has consisted of waking up at approximately 7.30 am every morning, eating a couple of slices of toast or a bowl of cereal, drinking a cup of “English” tea, showering, then dressing myself in appropriate cloths (a “real” person always dresses appropriately). Some of these mornings have been slightly varied. For example, one morning I had eggs for breakfast and on another I had bacon; on some mornings I managed to read a bit of the paper, whilst on others I had time to catch “the news”; and still on other mornings I managed to add even more variation to this period, by defecating in the toilet before my journey to work, or lying in bed for that extra half an hour before all choice was removed and I
had to get up. However trivial these last two acts might appear, it is with a profound sense of discovery, elation even, that I'm able to discourse upon them!
During the week, which was enveloped with a most profound sense of monotony and repetition, it is both of these actions (extra sleep and/or defecation) which have enabled me to form a personal sort of resistance, a resistance against the inevitability of coming work and the absolutism of existing work. For example, when a man wakes up on a workday, he soon becomes acutely aware of what he must do; that is, he is bound, incarcerated even, to a rigid set of structures which have long since decided his circumstances. For example, if work begins at 9am, it makes no difference whatsoever whether he wakes up at 8am or 6am; either way, the time is not his your own, it exists only in relation to coming work. Before work begins, what he decides to do with his time, how he does it, where he does it, all of these actions will be decided by when and where he is working. In this way, the individual who exists outside of work always exists in a dialectical relationship with coming work. This is an inescapable reality for the working man: you cannot be yourself inside work, but neither can you be yourself outside work.
It is this realisation which acts and should always act as the birth of a resistance against the manacles and machinations imposed upon him by work. Instead, the worker, unconscious of his slavery, resists through trivial forms. For example, in order to resist the inevitability of loss of self in relation to coming work, he decides he will will attempt to vary the rigidity of his actions. For example, one Monday, he might wake up at 7.30 am and say to himself: “I do not feel like eating porridge today, I will eat Weetabix instead.” The following Monday, awake at the same time, he might say to himself, “I am bored of Weetabix, I think I'll have a bowl of Weetos this morning”. A week later, he will once again wake up at 7.30 am and decide that Shredded Wheat are the cereal of the day, or Sugar Puffs, or Cheerios, and so on. He will then stare idly at the wall eating his cereal: he wishes he could watch a film, or pick up a book, or relax, chill out, perhaps even go for a walk, see his loved ones, or simply exist by himself in his own thoughts. Actually, work begins in ninety minutes, he has time do some of these things, but he cannot; he cannot because his thoughts, and so his actions, are dominated by the inescapable reality of coming work.
In this state, a state of complete and utter psychological and physical incarceration, the question is this: what can be done? In this state, is our notion of choice reduced absolutely to such menial things as what we can eat for breakfast, or whether we're going to read a newspaper in the morning, or watch “the news”? In an employed state, is it even possible to exist by oneself, outside of the restrictions all jobs impose upon their subjects? The answer, of course, is no. All individuals in employment exist within this dialectic, of this there is little doubt. If you work, you are a slave, both inside and outside of work, as even outside of work, all your thoughts, feelings and thus your actions always exist in relation to coming work.
Yet, over the past week or so, it has been my time lying in bed in the hope for extra sleep, lying in bed staring at the wall, or spending fifteen or even twenty minutes defecating in the toilet, which have allowed me to lose myself amidst the stenches of my own creation. This might sound disagreeable to you, it might even offend you, but the truth is this: the stench of sweat, produced by the body (and long a component of my own unwashed bedsheets), much like the adjacent stench of one's own shit, are our own and should be respected as such. In a world where it is becoming increasingly difficult to know what is and isn't our own, where even our thoughts and feelings are manafactured and produced by forces external to our selves, must we continue to undermine the valuable produce of our own bodily functions in the face of an ever-pervasive workplace? Next time you're shitting, I implore you to think of this: all men and women shit, we're shitters by nature and, for the most part, we shit on a daily basis. On the toilet, no woman, no matter how beautiful, is more significant than you, no man different. In a word, shitters are shitters, and shit, much like sweat, is a product of our selves.
But that isn't the point, the point is this: sweat-induced sleep and defecation, attributes universal to us all, have had a profound impact on my past week, which has been spent working on a full-time basis. It is important we distinguish between both of these actions. The former (sweat-induced sleep) is an attempt at losing consciousness, a passive subversion of the inescapable and indefinite reality of future work. The latter, in contrast, represents an active rearticulation of the usual processes which constitute the coming of this inescapable reality; opposed to passivity, defecation can be summarised as a violent outburst within the everyday, an outburst which upsets the workplace through its attack on “the Real”, which can be defined as monotony and repetition through structural imposition. Rather than blindly romanticising defecation and sweat-induced sleep, however, it must be noted that these moments, which disrupt the manacles of structural imposition through a recuperation of the body and a rearticulation of “the Real”, are only able to offer a brief, transitory and thus vacuous escape from the inevitability of coming work. No matter how free one might feel whilst sleeping, for the worker, the enjoyment of sleep and its apparent subversion of coming work always exists in relation to coming work. When you sleep, how you sleep, and where you sleep will always be dictated by this crushing inevitability, and the same holds true for shitting. By all means, I beg you: shit to your hearts content, succumb to shit, shit as much as possible and as much as your body will allow. But remember, no matter how much you shit, the process of shitting, no matter how satisfying or cathartic, is only satisfying through its relationship to coming or existing work. In a word, shitting is an outburst against but always within “the Real”, just as extra sleep is a subversion of “the Real” within its own disciplinary system.
Both the passive subversion produced by extra sleep, much like the active exertion of shitting, must therefore always be understood within a dialectic of performance within greater systematic incarceration. When the individual resists the torrid noise of his dreaded alarm-clock, for example, or desecrates a toilet with an outburst of divine, heavenly excrement, the individual does much more than simply perform a bodily function. He transfigures “the Real” through this performance, and briefly, momentarily denies, even transcends, systematic incarceration. The incarceration still exists; it is an ever-pervasive and all-consuming force, always already able to overpower subversion or sporadic outbursts of resistance. Yet such moments of bodily resistance, however futile they might appear, must be further understood and studied, appreciated and criticised, thought about and openly discussed. Biologically, shitting will forever be a part of ourselves. However brief, it is a recuperation of time, time alone, without distraction. A chance to be by oneself inside one's own thoughts, how we shit should therefore be scrutinised. Scrutinised, appreciated, and understood, because time is everything. And time by yourself will change the world.